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[28 Mar 2005|12:36pm] |
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Hello, it's been a while. The reason I had deleted my journal was because some girl was faking me on a forum. I really don't want to tlak about it anymore, it really pissed me off. Anyways..I don't like NJ that much, I'm a Cali girl at heart, and I miss it terribly. But I guess I have to deal..
Three bands I have recently gotten into:
*Louis XIV
*Hot Hot Heat
*Hidden in Plain View
Easter didn't feel like Easter, it was boring and I miss my family and friends in Cali. I was depressed for quite a while, but it's really not that bad here.
I almost got to go to the Curiosa fest, I really want to go, but I'm poor, haha.
Here is what my hair looks like now. I HATE it, it looks really bad on me! :( I really think it looks spectacular on some, but on me it does not work!
( This is the First Day of my Life )
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| I'm still alive! |
[27 Feb 2005|02:19pm] |
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Wow, sooo much has happened since I last wrote..does anyone even remember me? Haha...in a nutshell:
*We broke up
*WE MOVED!
We moved to NEW JERSEY! I hate it! I just miss San Diego sooo bad! We live in Garden State..I like our house, but I have no friends, and no boyrfriend or anything. :(
Anyways, here are the last pictures taken on Feb.15, when I had a b-day party with all my friends before I moved. Jake didn't come. :(
( There's Beauty in the Breakdown )
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| Strange as Angels |
[13 Feb 2005|12:26pm] |
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Hey, quite a bit has happened over the past few days…I have never experienced this feeling, this emotion. I am in love. The guy I have liked for so LONG likes me! I am starry-eyed. I always loved JLH by The Cure, but now it really rings true for me, I can actually APPLY it to my life!♥
( Just Like Heaven♥ )
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[07 Feb 2005|06:34pm] |
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Hey! These are some pictures I got developed today...the ones of me are in Los Angeles...the others are my doggy Conor! :)
( Cream Bunnies♥ )
In other news, the guy I like does not like me. I was pretty sad about it..still am, kinda...I wrote this earlier...
wish I had the words, but they’re just not there
How can I verbalize just how much I care
If you look close, you can see it in my eyes
My heart can’t talk to you, although it always tries
Rushing blood, always flustered in the face
Feeling it warming up, throw my veins it starts to race
I can’t get too close, you start to take my breath away
I’ve never had anyone effect me so much in this way
Trying hard to play it off, I have to stay cool
I can’t stumble around and look like a complete fool
Always on my mind, especially at night
In my dreams you’re mine, and it just feels so right
There, you let me love you, like I know that I could
Imagining you’re touch, and how it feels so good
Driving myself insane, with the touch of your skin
Too many sensations at once for them all to sink in
Never apart, love always keeping us together
Surviving any storm, or any kind of weather
How can I convince you that this is all so true
I’ve never wanted anyone as much as I want you
Searching for the magic to make this all come to be
How do I make you want to also be with me
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| I'm back. |
[06 Feb 2005|07:16pm] |
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The Night Will Go As Follows by The Spill Canvas |
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So, it was pretty fun...but I'm ready to go back to school!
I got a new puppy!!!
I still really miss Murphy, but this puppy is soooo cute! His name is Conor, after the lead singer of Bright Eyes...
I'll post pictures in about and hour or so.
Much Love. :)
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| In a Sea Black with Ink.... |
[02 Feb 2005|07:34pm] |
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Hey, I haven't updated in a while because I have been really busy...Anyways, I am going to visit my grandma in LA, she lives kinda by Santa Monica..
The guy I like doesn't like me...he said I have an okay personality, but physically I'm not his "type." *sigh* So I was kinda melancholy today.
Someone said my nose wa f***ed up today :(...I hate my nose anyway, and am really self-concious of it.
See ya next week, I might come on a bit tomorrow and the rest of the week while I am in LA if I'm not too busy! :) I was bored, so here are some black and white pictures.
( Lips Like Sugar )
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| Time for bed.. |
[30 Jan 2005|01:42am] |
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Asleep by The Smiths |
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Asleep
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I'm tired and I
I want to go to bed
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
And then leave me alone
Don't try to wake me in the morning
'Cause I will be gone
Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I will feel so glad to go
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore
Sing to me
Sing to me
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore
Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I really want to go
There is another world
There is a better world
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well ...
Bye bye
Bye bye
Bye ...
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| I love this song..I love The Currre... |
[30 Jan 2005|12:21am] |
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Apart by The Cure |
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This song is so powerful, and I have to admit, I cry during it...
he waits for her to understand
but she won't understand at all
she waits all night for him to call
but he won't call anymore
he waits to hear her say
forgive
but she just drops her pearl-black eyes
and prays to hear him say
i love you
but he tells no more lies
he waits for her to sympathize
but she won't sympathize at all
she waits all night to feel his kiss
but always wakes alone
he waits to hear her say
forget
but she just hangs her head in pain
and prays to hear him say
no more
i'll never leave again
how did we get this far apart?
we used to be so close together
how did we get this far apart?
i thought this love would last forever
he waits for her to understand
but she won't understand at all
she waits all night for him to call
but we won't call
he waits to hear her say
forgive
but she just drops her pearl-black eyes
and prays to hear him say
i love you
but he tells no more lies
how did we get this far apart?
we used to be so close together
how did we get this far apart?
i thought this love would last forever
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| R.I.P Murphy.. |
[29 Jan 2005|08:49pm] |
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I just want to post these in order to vent! Thanks! :)
( L.O.V.E. )
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| Had a bad day... |
[27 Jan 2005|05:12pm] |
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All I want by THE CURE |
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Had a bad day, don't talk to me,
gonna ride this out,
My little black heart, breaks apart,
with your big mouth.
And I'm sick of my sickness
Dont touch me, you'll get this.
I'm useless, lazy, perverted,
and you hate me.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call,
And everything, everything's my fault.
Went to the doctor, and I asked her,
to make this stop.(whoa)
Got medication, a new addiction,
Fucken thanks a lot.
Had to relapse, I'm outta rehab,
It ruined everything.(whoa)
So point your finger, at the singer,
He's in the pharmacy.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call ,
and everything's my fault.
You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything, and everthing's my fault.
And I'm a death threat haven't slept yet,
Baby wide awake at dawn.
Helmet bad boy, tell the tabloids,
everything's my fault.
Whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa Whoa everthing's my fault,
everthing's my fault.
I went to heaven, couldn't get it,
For what I had done.
I said forsake me, you said you're crazy
you were too much fun.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call ,
and everything's my fault.
Everything's my fault.
I had a horrible day. THE worst in ages...
First of all, I was late to school. Then I tripped in the dirt, almost got ran over..scraped my leg of really bad. Then I was late to THREE classes, got yelled at, and came home early because my dog died! His name was Murphy, and I loved him soooo....much!
I feel really bad, I hope things improve. :(
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| Proud 2 be blonde again! |
[24 Jan 2005|06:21pm] |
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Sorry! I have been gone! My aunt Mary got married so I was in New York City for 4 days! We just got back this morning!
It was really cool! I watched Moulin Rouge 8 times!
I will post pictures later tonighte before I go to bed, but I have to do my homework now!
<3 ya, Sanya-Banya
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[19 Jan 2005|10:46pm] |
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| My fave animes <3 |
[17 Jan 2005|10:49pm] |
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She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5 |
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Hey Chelsea! These are my favorite animes!!
» Record of Lodoss War
» Rurouni Kenshin
» Sailor Moon
» Shoujo Kakumei Utena
» Sister Princess
» Saiyuki
» Sakura Wars
» Samurai Deeper Kyo
» Shingetsutan Tsukihime
» Shoujo Kakumei Utena
» Prince of Tennis
» Rurouni Kenshin
» Gundam Seed
» Gundam Wing
» Hack Sign
» Hellsing
» Inu-Yasha
» Kanon
» Kao no Nai Tsuki
» Kiddy Grade
» Kimi ga Nozomu Eien
» Lain
» Love Hina
» Ghost in the Shell
» Ranma 1/2
» Fruits Basket
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